Wednesday, January 07, 2009

i'm fine. really, i'm fine. just fine. fine.

Hello, hello. I am not as crazy as I sound, I promise!

This blog is kind of like my barstool, and you, my kind reading friends, are the poor barkeep who is forced to listen to me. Sometimes a gal's just gotta vent. I swear I do not write self-pitying posts to get you to leave sweet comments. I do appreciate them - but I am not fishing for them.

You all know how it is to be the busy mom. It gets to be like a pressure-cooker in your head. I don't really have anyone around me right now who I can yell at, so I do that here. I'm not up on a ledge (yet), but I am stressed, and it bleeds onto the blog because that's my life right now.

I don't know...just felt I should say that.


Ruth said...

I yelled and stomped my feet on a board I post on last night, and while it didn't change any of the things that were/are frustrating me, I did feel better for having let it out.

You are under a lot of stress, and you have a right -- nay, a NEED -- to release it once and a while. And what else are friends for, but to listen?

Hang in there, sweetie. You'll make it through.

Mrs Lemon said...

I stopped breastfeeding/pumping about 3 weeks ago, and I was amazed at the way my stress level went down. Don't get me wrong, I loved it, but the stress that was going on with me with other circumstances plus that was just too much. I had to back out of SOMETHING, and that was the best option for us at the time. My husband even commented the other day how much calmer I seemed since I weaned him. But, that is just me and my family. Every family is different.

And if you can't fish for compliments from the interweb, who can you fish from? Fish on, I say :)

(To continue your bar analogy, my security word is tabst)

And I am now done.

Erin said...


I'm a pretty regular lurker here and I just wanted to let you know that it is ok to give your baby formula. Breastfeeding is wonderful and if you can do it for a year- you totally rock, but I know I couldn't. Your baby needs you to be the best mommy you can, and if breastfeeding gets in the way you totally have the option to stop. I remember feeling so guilty for quitting too, but I felt that I gave it the best try that I could- and I'm sure you have too.


HangerMom said...

Hey, Kate! I haven't been reading blogs for a few weeks, so I just caught up on your knitting and family stuff. AJ is such a beautiful little boy! I know it's all stressful, and trust me that I know venting online can help, even if it's to strangers. It's like journaling used to be, right? Just putting your stress in to words can help work through it.

Anyway, I'm glad you're "fine" :).

One other comment - do you have to start your son on solids soon? I mean, my old pediatrician usually said "by the six month check up" they should have started on cereal, but my current family doctor is totally supportive of continuing a liquid diet, so long as the kid is thriving on it, until 9 months or whenever you decide to switch it up. I'll likely still start Meg on solids in a couple months because that routine always worked well with my other girls... but if you could maintain some sense of peace by sticking with liquids a little longer, then maybe you don't have to start him on solids so soon? I don't know if there are special circumstances for AJ, though, so this may be a waste of typing.

Happy 2009. May it be a smoother, more relaxing year for you and yours.