Saturday, August 12, 2006

agony

Our precious baby girl, Elizabeth Ellen, was called home to be with Jesus this morning. For reasons we do not know (and may never know), her little heart stopped beating sometime during week 31. She was born this morning at 3:30, weighed 2 lbs., 6.8 oz., and is absolutely beautiful.

Obviously we are sick with grief. You have all been so supportive over the last 7 months, and once again I ask for your prayers as we struggle to understand God's plan for our family.

38 comments:

Scoutj said...

Oh Kate. My heart goes out to you. I am so, so sorry for your loss. Words escape me.
xoxo

Kyleen King Zelenak said...

I stumbled by your blog a few weeks ago and I thought I would check in today. I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Today is my birthday and I will forever remember your Elizabeth Ellen. I will remember you and your family in my prayers during this most difficult time.

Ramona said...

I am sure that there are no words that really comfort but I am so sorry for your loss. You will be thought of in our prayers.

Jenn said...

Oh my. What a terrible loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Renee said...

Kate,
I am so, so sorry.
I know it's not the same thing, but I recently have experienced two miscarriages and although I do wonder "why," mostly I'm asking God to turn my suffering into something beautiful.
My prayer for you is for peace.

Anonymous said...

oh kate, my heart just breaks for you and for your family at this time.
my thoughts and prayers are with you.
so sorry for your loss.

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog anonomously for a while now, and though we've never met, my heart breaks for you. You have my grief and my prayers.

Unknown said...

Kate. I struggle to find words, to wrap my mind around this. I wish I could be there for you. Please know that my prayers for you are fervent and that I care so, so much.

I'm so sorry.

R said...

Dear Jesus ~ You alone can meet this mother's grief right now. I pray for your ever-lasting presence upon her right. this. moment. Please surround her with those to love her, weep with her, to be You to her. Ohhhh, though words cannot begin to cry out or express the pain in the heart... the groaning, Lord.... I just bring them to the foot of your cross, Lord. In Your Precious Name, Amen.

John 11:35

kiki said...

dear kate,
i´m feeling with you & would like to send you & your family all my power - you are in my prayers.
k

G.L.H. said...

Dear Kate,
So sorry for your loss. Am keeping you in my prayers.
--Barbara

Teresa said...

I wish there was something I could say, some magic words to heal you. I know there are not. Know my thoughts and prayers are with you, and my heart goes out to you. If there is anything we can do, please don't hesitate to ask.

Anonymous said...

I am here through my sister Karen at The Big Trade-Off. My heart is just breaking for you and your family. Please know that I am sending prayers your way as you deal with this unspeakable loss.

Anonymous said...

I'm so terribly, terribly sorry. Praying for peace for you and your family.

kpjara said...

Words could never express the anguish I feel for you and your family. Prayers of peace and comfort as only God can offer.

owlhaven said...

Dear Kate, I am here from Karen's and am so sorry for your loss.

Prayers,
Mary

Anonymous said...

Here from Karen's blog.

You are in my thoughts. So, so sorry.

Amanda said...

Here from Karen's blog. My heart aches for you. My prayers have been for you today

Anonymous said...

My heart goes out to you and your family at this time. My prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful name--Elizabeth Ellen. I'm so sorry for her early return, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

tam said...

Dear, Dear Kate and Husband,
I came through Karen. Please know that my prayers will be held up to the Lord for you Un Ceas Ing Ly.

My husband and I know the pain of losing a daughter too. Just a few weeks shy of your blessed girl.

Christ Jesus is truly the one to fold yourself into, no matter what that looks like. Hold Him with everything you have left within you. If there is nothing then know He IS holding you, tenderly and lovingly...

Weeping for and with you...

Tam

tam said...

just wanted you to know you have yet to leave my mind...you are in such a hard, hard place...

I did not yet know Christ when we lost our girl...I did not fully understand scripture then either.

I don't know what your spiritual context is but this was left for me in a card and seemed to allow me a few moments of peace and comfort whenever I allowed myself to read it:

Romans 8:26

"...the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express."

Anonymous said...

You're in my prayers! :(

Staci said...

Oh, Kate! I can't think of words other to say that I am and will be praying for you and yours. I'm so very shocked and sorry.

Aunt Murry said...

I came here by way of another blog. I pray that you and your family have all that you need. May peace be with you in your time of need. May he hold and keep you.

Jen said...

Oh Kate, I'm so sorry for your loss. I have lost two babies in the past year, much earlier than yours, and so I have a slight idea of the pain you are feeling. I will keep you in my prayers.
Grieving with you,
Jenny

Donnetta said...

Here through Tam. No words found for what my heart wants to express to you...I am so very sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers...

Anonymous said...

I'm so so sorry. I have never been to your blog before, but I want you to know how heartsick I am for you. I am praying for you, though we don't know each other. You are my sister, and I'm grateful that you know your daughter is with God.

Unknown said...

I am so sorry that this has happened. I lost my baby years ago at 7 1/2 months so I understand. I will place your baby in my prayers right next to my own.

Susie said...

I'm so sorry for you Kate. Only God can understand what you must be feeling. My prayers are with you.

Heth said...

I'm so sorry Kate.

C. H. Green said...

((((hugs))))

Ruth said...

Oh, Kate ... oh, no. I am so terribly, terribly sorry.

You, your husband and daughters are in my thoughts and prayers.

(((HUGS))) ......

Anonymous said...

Kate, I'm so very very sorry.

My thoughts & prayers are with you & your family right now.

Pam said...

Oh Kate, I am so sorry. I found you via Karen's site, and my heart is tender for your loss. May God be very close to you throughout this time.

Anonymous said...

Oh Kate, I've been reading your blog on and off for a little while - I'm so sorry for your loss. Of course I will be thinking of and praying for you and your family.
((((hugs))))

Anonymous said...

I am so very, very sorry. I've never been here at your site, but I sat here crying for your heartbreak. I'm just so sorry.





(I'm here because of Karen.)

Pear tree cottage! said...

Kate, whilst we are across the seas and unknown to you my dear, our hearts know yours is breaking.........many blessing to you and your family and may god hold your little one in his arms always and forever.